I took my YTT (Yoga Teacher Training) because I LOVE yoga. I woud practice every single day, had a yoga room dedicated to my practice and would obsess (LITERALLY) about classes I would be doing next. I’d stalk The Journey Junkie, Jason Cradell and Yoga by Candace.
Once I graduated my YTT it’s almost like shit got real. I stopped practicing so much and focused on planning, obsessed about teaching, wording, cueing, would people like me, will my classes be fun, challenging…Jesus. It was almost like learning to teach my favourite thing had caused it to become intimidating and not any freaking fun.
And I’m a little sick of it, to be completely honest. I miss my practice. Don’t get me wrong, I love teaching, I love my students, I love that I have regulars and that I get their bodies and the needs they have.
And I’m still laser focused on my ultimate goal of traveling around in that freaking adorable trailer we have and teaching yoga around the country, BUT I MISS MY MOTIVATION. I miss doing yoga often. I want to obsess about ME and MY practice.
Self centred, right? Sounds super selfish, right? I know, I feel it. But I’ve discovered that the problem with thinking that making your self care a priority is selfish or self centred is that you just sink, and sink, and fucking sink. Until you don’t become a priority any more. And lets be honest, when I’m practicing, I feel more grounded and focused, which makes me more unlikely to line up my family just to cry infront of them whilst letting them know how unappreciated I am……
So how do I find a happy medium? Seriously, guys, HOW?! 🙄
I’ve got a few ideas….first, I’m taking back my Yoga Room and unpacking those boxes that are staring at me. Then I’m renewing my YogaGlo subscription. Thirdly, I’m going to make an effort to get the hell outta my house and do some community yoga classs with my peeps! AND I’m gonna post this list on that sweet little Love Feels Board I rambled on about last week.
Whew…..OK, that feels better!
Have you put something you ABSOLUTELY LOVE on the back burner? Do you have any tips or tricks that helped you get back on track? Come on…hook a sister up!!
PS…if you ever hear me say that I’d like to cut my hair this short again, PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT’S RIGHT IN THE WORLD…..DO NOT LET ME!!!!!!